Paddy Brennan keeps temper in check to concentrate on being a winner December 25th, 2009 | Horse Racing news | No Comments »
The jockeys room is a den of addictions, most of them harmful. We know some have turned to drugs, rather more to drink. Then there is chocolate, crisps, the usual cravings of the self-starved. Paddy Brennan suffers from none of these. His addiction is winning. Anything less drives him mad.
This is not just the will to win that every sportsman requires. It runs deep through Brennans slender frame and, by his own candid admission, messes with his mind. He used to throw saddles around the weighing-room and vent his anger offensively. Now, he bites his tongue and broods. Im not the nicest person when things go wrong, he said.
So just imagine the state of him, aboard Imperial Commander at Haydock last month, firmly believing he had conquered the great Kauto Star until that cruel photograph revealed that he had been beaten a nose. Or now, with two more days to while away before the chance of atonement at Kempton Park. Im trying to keep occupied, not to dwell on it. But I really cant wait.
This is no spoilt bully who cries when he doesnt get his way. Brennan, 28, is a jockey with rare gifts of touch and timing. He is also bright, witty, companionable and kind. He will talk for hours, engagingly and broadly. He did so this week, in the cottage near Stow-on-the-Wold where he has lived since bitter-sweet circumstances brought him the job as stable jockey to Nigel Twiston-Davies.
Around him was the detritus of the bachelor life he leads since the break-up of an engagement. This week, at least, he is not sorry to be alone with his thoughts and his dreams. They stretch years ahead, for there is nothing in racing that Brennan does not want to do. But he fears and loathes failure.
Probably, I brood at home more than I should, and thats sad. Racing is such a small thing in a massive world but it can take you away from the whole of life. Thats why I love it so much, I guess - theres so much to challenge you.
Brennan is laceratingly honest about his own failings, decorating a life story that began in CoGalway with tales against himself. My mother says the first day I went to school, I lay on the ground and cried for ten minutes, he began. A psychotherapist might make much of this but Brennan dismisses it as a snap judgment. I just hated school.
He was a promising hurler and did not ride until he was 12. Our neighbour kept horses. I sat next to his son at school and he was always on about them. When I first went there, it made me so happy, gave me a feeling Id never had. From that day on, horses took over from hurling.
His whole face radiates warmth when he reminisces but the expression becomes grave again discussing his racing education in the school of hard knocks - proprietor, Jim Bolger. Yet, like most who went through their apprenticeship at Coolcullen, Tony McCoy included, he says it was the making of him.
Ill never forget the first day. Dad dropped me off at half-past two in my best shirt and newly washed jeans. I got home at half five, totally black. That was Jim - the moment you were inside the gate, it didnt matter who you were, it was work. Id disobeyed lots of teachers and got away with it, but you werent going to disobey Jim.
He could be frightening to a young lad. Hed have you in tears and many was the time I tried to leave and get out of racing. But I have massive respect for him and honestly believe hes the best trainer in the world. Theres also a soft side to him that few see.
In my fifth year there, Tony McCoy came to visit. All wed ever hear about was McCoy. He was like a God. Even if you didnt sweep the yard right, Jim would say Tony wouldnt sweep it like that. So when he walked in the tackroom, it was like David Beckham turning up at your local football club. But it was A.P. who sussed out a job for me in England, suggested I went to Paul Nicholls.
On the face of it, this was a dream move. It was 2000, Nicholls was heading for the top. But I went there with the wrong attitude, Brennan said. I was expecting everything to happen yesterday and I thought I was better than I was. The turning point was breaking my leg in 2002 - I went home, watched all my rides on my Godfathers video and realised I was a very ordinary rider.
I was off for six months and I needed every bit of that to get my head right. I had to sort out not just my riding but how I spoke to people, how horrible I could be. I didnt listen to people who tried to help me and I had stupid habits like throwing my saddle across the weighing-room.
It was not an overnight conversion, but Brennan profited from a spell with Philip Hobbs. I felt part of something in a way Id not done before. We hit it off straight away and he was a brilliant man to work for. He had a totally different style to Jim Bolger but it had the same effect - you knew if youd done wrong.
A year with Howard Johnson brought him a World Hurdle and an acrimonious exit. I was angry when I found out he didnt want me to stay, it was hurtful. But I take the positives and the biggest was meeting Graham Wylie, a real gentleman who still sponsors me now.
The other positive was tumbling directly into the job at Naunton, where he is now in his third season. Nigel is the most positive man Ive ever worked for. Khyber Kim was 12-1 for the Boylesports Hurdle but he convinced me I was riding the odds-on favourite. Thats what he does. He believes anything is possible and sometimes it works. I get a real kick out of seeing Nigel second only to Paul Nicholls.
It would be stretching a point to say Brennan has mellowed. You can still sense the rage within but he has a mute button now. Ive learned the best thing is to say nothing and then its easily mended. Before, Id have said the wrong thing and offended people.
He tries to channel his life away from the day job - playing golf, watching football, absorbing his beloved TV soaps. Im learning to get away from it more. But racing and its dream factory still consumes him.
He wants to win a National, he wants to be champion jockey - though only after Richard Johnson, who deserves it more than anybody. Most of all, he wants to be known as the best. Im getting there but I still have to raise another level. Watching him try will never be dull.
